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Wednesday, September 11, 2013
不了解人心，
人性太可怕。
我放下自己常有的自尊，
低声下气的和你说话。
一开始就跟你道歉。
你对我说出真话，
事实真让人心痛，失望。
费劲心思跟他说的话，
变成了他砖牛角尖的理由。
我到底该怎么做，怎么说，你才了解？
No one owes anyone a living.
Not your parents, not your siblings, not your teachers or friends.
We are accountable for our own life,
we take care of our own well-being.
For me, I'd learned that whatever others do for me are bonuses.
They are not my slave, not my maid, not someone that's paid or asked to do anything for me.
Can you understand this simple fact?
If you can, then you won't felt being neglected, unfair or whatsoever.
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Monday, September 02, 2013
[Reminiscence..]
Missed you guys a lot, really a lot...!!! Some people that i really care for and we had not met for super long period of time.
To my black societies:
It's been about a year since we last met and
months to our last messages.
How had you guys been?
When will we meet again?
Are you guys coping well?
Are you guys happy?
I miss the care you guys gave to me (the maknae).
Seriously,
I love how the 4 OF US can get so close TOGETHER.
- Amelia: Met this woman in TKD at the age of... 11.
Met her again during poly year 1, day 1. We said that we shall go to school and back home together, and we really did it for that 3 years! In charge of playing with me. We always watch SYTYCD on our way to and fro school. When we had any problems, we talked things out and solved it. We never leave things unsaid.
- Erlina: 2 years older than me,
always calling me 'Xan'. In charge of taking care of me. The first person who comfort me with a tight hug. Feel safe with her.
- Ying: A year older. Soft-spoken yet having those times
whereby she laughed and talked loudly. When i'm down, she will tune down and stayed by my side quietly. Compared with Erlina and Amelia, she's a silence and passive carer. 
Catherine:
Same for you, our last meet was monthssssssss ago.
Hope we can really meet this coming week. (please...~)
People just don't understand and in fact,
some were shocked that we are still close without a single bit of communication.
Recently you sent me a letter.
It really brought memories back.
How we meet,
how we became close,
how we trained TKD and study together.
I always believe and have the faith in you
that we are still as close.
It's further proven when i read the last sentence of the letter.
We had the same mindset.
What brought us so close and still close?
TRUST.
knowing what i'm thinking even before i open my mouth.
I admit that i'm definitely one of the hardest person to get along with in the world.
Love to hide my feelings,
yet leaking out bits and pieces with my default 'cold' look.
You guys know what's my likes and dislikes.
Gave me the silence and attention adequately and at the right time.
Had been taking the role of taking care of others, start to feel tired already. It's only with you guys that i felt i'm being treated as a younger sister.
Monday, September 02, 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
为什么变成这样?
Monday, August 12, 2013
Tuesday, August 06, 2013
So many things to say
Tuesday, August 06, 2013
Friday, July 26, 2013
Love watching drama because the scriptwriter loves to add meaningful slogan and phrases in.
'不要错过每一个拥抱，不要吝啬的说一声加油'
Cherish everyone that appears in your life, because they may not be there anymore.
Don't take others for granted, don't expect for the best.
Be grateful with what you already received, because someone out there may not even have 1/10 of it.
I'm... tired of trying.
Friday, July 26, 2013
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Ever feels scared to care for someone?
Like a loser when you don't even dare to go near,
don't even dare to message.
Had become really fake!
Smile when i don't feels like,
pushed away people i cared for the most.
Only God knows how worried i am for you.
Only He knows how much i really appreciate and love you guys.
When you really cares for someone,
no matter what he/she does,
you just can't get upset with him/her.
no matter what,
you still feels like caring for him/her.
Only today that i really felt it.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Have you ever met a friend whereby you guys clicked on so well that you regret not meeting earlier?
Or there are people you regret meeting?
For me, it's like fated.
So once met, no matter it's a good or bad meet,
we must treasure them.
Thursday, July 11, 2013
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